Love is in the air

Yesterday we visited our doctor again, its 32 weeks old now... My condition was good, blood pressure is 100/80. The baby weight is already 2,235 kg and heart beat rate is 137..everything normal.. my doctor said that my baby weight is a little bit over average but still okay, its because the food supply in perfect condition.. i still have to watch my diet as i still have to wait almost 2 more months for delivery... If i need to have a normal delivery then i have to watch the baby size...:) But i believe its gonna be okay...i'm preparing for normal.. Couldn't wait to see my baby soon... Btw i still have more item on my baby shopping list, i need time to go shopping soon... I'm very excited to enter the new year..as its gonna be a year of new life for me...i believe everything will be much much better as well...

Dear all, We would like to wish you... A Blessed Christmas May this Christmas brings hope, joy, peace, love, and happiness to your life... Don't forget the reason Jesus was born ..its for you and me...to have an eternal life Because He is the only way to heaven...He is the Prince of Peace.. For those who need peace, joy, love just come to Him..you will be satisfied.. From David, Selvi & Little one..

Yesterday Christmas celebration (Dec 23rd) at church was little bit different than years before. This xmas theme is Christmas Hope which means that christmas is supposed to bring hope to those who need. This christmas as a church we appreciate some people in need, the first one is Pak Setiadi, he's one of the church member who always come early every sunday, helping prepare everything for the service like preparing brochure, drink, chair, etc. He's very humble person, he works as freelance worker, he lives in a very small house. His faith keeps him do little things to serve God. Rarely people recognize him at church before yesterday. We appreciate him on the stage and give him a buch of christmas gift. He deserve that. The second one if one poor christian family who has 4 kids, 3 girls and 1 boy, they are not member of our church but we found them and this xmas we wanna bring hope to their life. They have a christmas dream of having a better life, 2 older girls wanna keep conti...

This december we're welcome one boy and one girl at church... Irene - third baby girl of Ps. Yudi & Litha - born on dec 6th 2007 (This is her sleeping style picture i took just yesterday dec 23rd at church, i think she looks just like her dad) Kenneth - the first baby boy of Ricky and Imel (this is his 2 days old picture at hospital, so cute... still couldn't tell he looks like ricky or imel) Still more to come...baby of Joni - Fonda, due on January and then my boy will come on february...couldn't wait..:)

Christmas this year is really different, especially because its the first xmas after i get married and at the same time we're waiting for our first baby boy.. Few days ago we went to Taman Anggrek Mall, what i love about TA mall, is when the xmas comes they will make a really big xmas decoration. Still remember a year ago, the xmas tree was build from hundreds of cartoon character such as tweety, tazmania, bugs bunny..and this year is different, it was a small village surrounded with trees covered with snow and there're bears and mr. snowman.. there's also a story telling play with a wonderful message. I think this one is much much better than before. This was picture last xmas at TA... before we got married of course. Last saturday me and some pukat's friends also celebrate xmas, with BBQ lunch and cross gift at TA- PL Floor, as the same time we're throwing a bridal shower for Ling2 and Ming2, they'll get married this saturday (dec 22nd). Here's our pictu...

Last sunday is my dearest husband birthday.. My gift for him is Swiss Army watch...and he loves it :) Then at after church service i bought him a birthday cake from Bread Talk, then all friends singing happy birthday , its a bit awkward for him but its okay, it only happend once a year and not every birthday is on sunday... Then we had a family dinner at Saung Greenville.. His mom and dad also gave a gift. A belt and 2 esprit body fit t-shirt, looks good on him. I'm so blessed to marry him.......

Today it time to check my pregnancy condition at hospital. The good news is the baby position already change from breech to normal which is the head at the bottom. I'm so glad to know that because if he still not turn to this position it would be difficult for normal delivery.. My blood pressure is normal 110/80, only matter is my weight, its too fast.. in three weeks i gain 3 kg. So far until almost 30 weeks i already gain 16kg.. and guess what the baby has growing very fast as well, he's now 1,770 gr..which is above average weight. So the doctor ask me to diet so i wont gain very fast because the time to wait for delivery still 2 months. So today i've made my commitment to eat less carbohydrates, no ice cream, less sugar and salt, everything must be reduced. I'm thinking of doing exercise too, but beside doing pregnancy workout every saturday, i still have no clue what to do. If swimming its impossible to do it on week day as i'm working... maybe just take more ti...

On Friday Nov 30th 2007, we're having a thanksgiving dinner at Maureen's house.. There are 19 of us (me, david, maureen, andre, pitoyo, shelly, king2, helen, erick, lenny, honggo, katrin, erick, jessica, donny, paula, fitri, ps. daniel, ci grace) The food was awesome.. a very big turkey and many side dish such as bread, spaghetti, fettuccine, mashed potatoes (salty and sweet), green bean, and many more along with white and red wine, and for those who can't drink wine can enjoy sparkling grape juice. And for desert were hot chocolate (bitter and sweet), apple pie with vanilla ice cream.. This is my very first thanksgiving dinner in my life and i'm so grateful to have it with close friends..

This is still about my 30th birthday.. When i went home yesterday from work...i got flower from my husband at home.. its so beautiful, 10 orange roses smell so wonderful... I couldn't help my self not to smell the flower all the time..its so beautiful.. Yeah this is the best birthday ever...thanks to my beloved husband.. i got my b-day cake too.. its a blackforest. I got another gift from mom in law, its Burberry Brit Perfume, its my first ever perfume i got as a gift..its smell lovely..just knew from david that his mom and dad already bought it when we're having connecting in singapore from japan..thats nice to know how they really care about me.. my life is so complete.. We also did celebrate my b-day with close friends at hanamasa.. and i got another chocolate cake made by secret recipe..it taste so good... I just wanna say that this year is really the best year ever in my life.. Having friends around, family that care so much and perfect life-companion..the last one..the e...

Today is my 30th Birthday.. couldn't believe it, i thought I'm still 25 years old :) Just very first in the morning, my husband give me a b-day kiss along with a gift..guess what..its a very nice card and Manchester United Home Jersey...I've been wanted this shirt since months ago :) ...Thanks ya babe.. One more sweet give is the birthday card...from hallmark.. Front message : Happy Birthday my wife, my love I can't believe ow lucky i am to be married to you The love we share has grown deeper and gone beyond anything I could have imagined when we started out I like the way only you can make me laugh and the way i still get excited to see you at the end of the day.. Inside message : Our marriage is the most important thing in my life and you are the most important person And so today on your birthday I want to tell you how grateful i am to be married to you.. and how very much i love you.. today and always i'm loving life with you.. Personal message: It has been six ...

Last saturday after visited my brother and his family in kemayoran, me and david once again went to ITC mangga dua for shopping.... this time was not only for the baby but also for me :) Here're some additional list i bought for my son: LIDOS shop 1. Bantal kepala peyang 1pc 2. Saputangan 6pcs 3. Celana Pop 6pcs 4. Baju lengan pendek 6pcs 5. Baju sambung 2 pcs (so cute..) 6. Tatakan ompol salur 1 dz 7. Popok pinokio 1 dz 8. Bedong tetra 6pcs 9. Selimut topi 1 pc 10. Kelambu 1 pc 11. Tas baby 1 pc The price is quite cheap. I still have some list to go but half of them already provided by Jenty from Melb.. thank you sis...

Last Nov 20th was our 6th months wedding anniversary. Just couldn't believe that we've been married for only 6 months, its like years already..thats our joke when we talk about how our married life goes so far. Our life seems so complete with the waiting of our first baby boy. What i feel so far is just happiness, there're many moments that i never imagine i would experience before. Yes, we are not a perfect couple, we do have a small arguing, and different opinions but so far nothing can make our marriage in trouble, but in fact our feeling goes stronger. Many said that when u get married you will easily get bored with your spouse because you'll see him/her everyday and the feeling will be change..what i experience now is totally different, the more i know him the more i feel so in love with him..commitment become something that binds our heart even more each day.. Now as we expecting our baby, we really believe that if its not God who bless us, we won't be able to...

Today we have another visit to Dr. Lukman. Our baby already change his position, now his head is going up close to my rib, that's why i felt a bit hurt on my left rib everyday. My blood pressure is normal, 100/70 and gain 2.5kg since 3 weeks ago..and the baby weight is 1,140 gram now. He's not small for his age, its normal weight not too big according to dr. Lukman. The heart beat is normal. So nothing to worry about.. we'll have to visit him again on the next 3 weeks. The baby is becoming more and more active everyday, i think he's just like me when i was in my mom's womb hehe... i so happy everytime i can feel his move..thats the wonderful thing about being a pregnant woman i think. It still 3 months to wait before he's ready to be born, my pray is that i will deliver him normal and be able to give him breastfeeding...

Last saturday we went to ITC mangga dua for shopping, this time was special coz it was the first time we buy all the things our baby would need.. I've prepared a long list after some research in the internet and info from some friends. I knew that there're so many baby's shop in ITC and some of them not recommended because of the price and service. Finally i have two options for store : Baby's and Bambino on 2nd floor. These is the list: Baby's Shop: 1. Baju tangan panjang (1/2 dz) (caney) 2. Baju tangan pendek (1/2 dz) (caney) 3. Baju tangan buntung (1/2 dz) (caney) 4. Singlet (1 dz) (nova) 5. Celana pendek (caney) (1/2 dz) 6. Celana Panjang kaki terbuka (caney) (1/2 dz) 7. Celana Panjang kaki tertutup (caney) (1/2 dz) 8. Bedong flanel (1/2 dz) 9. Cukin / gendongan batik (1pc) 10. Gendongan samping modern (1 pc) 11. Popok kain (2 dz) 12. Sapu tangan tebal (1/2 dz) 13. Tatakan ompol flanel (1/2 dz) 14. Sarung kaki + tangan (set) (6 pcs) 15. Kain kasa keri...

After almost 4 years using my Nokia 7610, finally i got my new handset.. I've been wanting to have N73 since it first launched, but since the price is too high i prefer to wait. Now i can buy the music edition (thanks to my dearest husband), which is the best value of money compare to the standard edition. Using the music edition also give me advantage to import songs for my baby to listen, then i can use the hands free on my belly :) so all day long he can hear the music.. I can feel the baby's reaction when he listen to music. As i read from books and also heard from some friends, they suggest me to play good music for the baby, it will effect his brain and give him good influence. I'm collecting many kind of baby's songs now, from mozart, christian lullabys, christian kids songs and even barney's songs..:)

Time flies so fast, just couldn't imagine my baby is 23rd weeks already. Today we go to see our doctor again, my blood pressure is normal (100/70) and gain 2 more kilos in 3 weeks... The baby is getting bigger, now we can get his total weight, its 740grams.. its normal according to dr. lukman. So just like our other visit, nothing to worry about regarding my pregnancy. And one more thing, i just found out that its okay for me to eat sashimi.. its not on the list of forbidden food i should ignore while pregnant. thats a good news..from now on i can eat salmon sashimi....yeahhhhhhh..sushi tei..here i come.. * i wish i knew it before we went to japan * one thing about my baby, he's very active..so happy to feel him inside my womb.. i'm curious who will he look like..me or david..??? I'm now collecting shopping list for him so i can start buying things one by one..its gonna be fun..:) I still haven't found a perfect name yet..hopefully soon.. I hope he will grow healthi...

This holiday me and husband together with my parent in law enjoy a wek tour to Japan with Panorama Tour, its on Oct 13th - 19th October 13th - 14th Together with other 21 people, we had night flight with japan airlines at 10.30pm, arrived at Narita in 7am in the morning (local time) its 2 hour earlier than jakarta. The flight was 7 hours, its very tiring for me, couldn't sleep as i cant stretch my leg. Being pregnant gave me many uncomfortable situation but thank God i was okay, only need to take a walk every 2 hours.. The weather in Tokyo was quite cold, its 19 celcius, for me its consider cold already. fortunately we come on october, if later then it will be even colder..i might cant survive there..:) Its sunday oct 14th, our local guide said that disneyland will be too crowded on sunday so we changed our schedule to go to disney sea first then the next day to disneyland. So we're heading to disney sea. The place was great, i love the buildings there, its beautifu...

My pregnancy is 5th months old now and its becoming more and more exciting as the baby is getting more active each day. Alway moving around and kicking..Its so fun to feel it even sometimes it disturbs my sleeping time but it always bring so much joy to me, knowing that my precious baby is growing inside me... My body also growing big in every part..looking at the mirror is not so much fun as before, i prefer to avoid though.... but i wont feel sad about it... To have my precious baby is worth everything...:)

Its 22 weeks now and this is our 6th doctor visit.. I've been waiting for this day, because we get to know what is the gender of our precious upcoming baby.. I've been longing for a boy but still dont mind if its a girl..coz the most important is...its gonna be my own baby.... By the time we saw the picture on USG screen i can see a little spot between baby's legs..yes..i'm very sure its a boy and the doctor say Yes its a boy... I'm so relief..:) now its the time to think about the perfect name for our first son..:) Anyway my body is getting much much bigger now, i gain 3.5 kg for 5 weeks..i thought its too much but doctor says its still okay.. I can't imagine what would be my weight in the next 3-4 months...i might be look like a big giant ball :) My blood pressure is normal 110/70. Today is the first day of my long-holiday, i'll be back to work on oct 22th 2007, so its almost 2 weeks holiday.. me and husband along with my parent in law will go to ...

Last nite around 6pm while i was sleeping after got back from office, i was not well yesterday, got headache. The came the earthquake, i can feel the room flying..we tried to wait a bit but it didn't stop..then we decided to go down, this time we used elevator..no more stairs.. then we heard from mom that there was an earthquake in bengkulu, 7.9 magnitude, just 10km below, and its been said that it can caused a tsunami, thank God it didn't happen.. There're many earthquake with smaller magnitude happened after that, but we didn't feel any of it. Now living in apartment is not exciting as before..don't know how much we can handle it and how much the building can handle if ever month there's an earthquake shaking the building..

Yesterday me and husband went to the doctor for another visit..its 15 weeks now, couldn't believe it. Our baby growing so fast, but still we can't see the gender yet. I have the picture and also made a short video with hp from the USG screen..its amazing.. My condition was good, gain 1 more kg and the blood pressure was normal 120/80. It was so amazing to see our tiny little baby, i wonder how its feel to be inside the mother's womb. Some people say that the baby already can feel what the mothers feel, they can listen to music as well.. i must be careful with the music i listen then..to make sure that it will give a positive affect to the baby.. my tummy is getting bigger, its very difficult to wear my old-outfit now..especially for trouser.. anyway i believe big is beautiful :) at least my husband never complaint :) anyway yesterday was my mom's birthday, too bad i can only call her from a far..wish that i could be with her..

I remember when i was in the choir team, back on university (Petra surabaya), we're once singing this song, its the prayer of St. Franciss of Assisi from 13th century. Lately i've been reminding again about this prayer. Entering the 40days fasting and prayer, this unselfish-prayer has really brought up the desire of God's heart.. This is my prayer too... L ord, make me an instrument of Thy peace; where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; and where there is sadness, joy. O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood, as to understand; to be loved, as to love; for it is in giving that we receive, it is in pardoning that we are pardoned, and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen.

B lessed are the poor in spirit : for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are they that mourn : for they shall be comforted. Blessed are the meek : for they shall inherit the earth. Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness : for they shall be filled. Blessed are the merciful : for they shall obtain mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart : for they shall see God. Blessed are the peacemakers : for they shall be called the children of God. Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake : for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. matthew 5:3-10

Yesterday we're visiting our doctor for our 4th meeting. Its getting more exciting as i was in the end of the first trimester, its 13 weeks now. My condition was excellent, blood pressure was normal 110/70, i have gained 1 more kilo in the past 3 weeks which is very good according to the doctor. When we saw our baby on USG screen...it was a happy moment as we see our baby grow so fast, its 7.1cm now and we can see the hands and legs then we can heart the heart beat. Its so fast, i think 2 or 3 times faster than grown up heart beat, thats normal. Then i got additional prescription, its calcium. I cant imagine how time went so fast..i'm so happy.. now i feel more comfortable, much better than the last 3 months..i'm getting more exciting to feel my baby moves inside my womb..maybe will happen in the next 2 months when i can also find out the gender..*hope its a boy* but for me both boy or girl is okay, he/she will be the jewel of my life.. I really thank God for all He has giv...

I just couldn't help myself not to tell the world about the news.. Early this morning when i woke up, i took SENSITIF, after just 20 second i got the result and its double RED line.. i was so excited. my husband still working *its 6am* we're so happy for the result.. it seems that all my curiosity has found an answer..i was so nervous before took the test kit. then we prayed together..give thanks to GOD for HIS wonderful gift for us. Actually 2 weeks ago i had the first test, the result was only a single line, i was very sad at that time but then i chose to rejoice, still hoping for different news in the next few weeks. My husband also try to comfort me, yeah we still have plenty of time, no need to worry anyway..hey we just got married why should i worry then.. Anyway in these few days I've been experiences some symptoms, i missed my period more than a week already and yesterday i was sick after i got office, people at office say that i might get pregnant, i...

Today is our 3rd visit to dr. Lukman. On our last visit he asked me to have some blood test and today i have to bring the result and he said its VERY GOOD, perfect. That's a good news. And we can see our baby progress from USG screen, the baby is getting bigger now, the length already 2.9cm, its very clear as we can see the heart beat. Dr says its 10 weeks old now. My weight going 1kg up compare to my last visit 2 weeks ago. We will come to see him again in the next 2 weeks. Its very exciting for me as its our first child, even sometimes i feel so uncomfortable with my pregnancy, eating not as delicious as i expect, and sometimes my body feel so weak, sleepy, i have to drink milk twice a day.. but when i think about the gift God has put in my womb i can't complain but to be joyful.. In this first 3 months is very important for the baby..all the body parts begin to form, the brain begin to develop. Its amazing to imagine how this happen..i was like this before.. Being...

One of my favorite writer is Stormie Omartian, with her simple book, she has taught me so much about how to pray.. This article i took from her book, The Power of a Praying Woman..its on the chapter about relationship. For me friendship is a relationship that influence my life the most..how i become today is because of friends i related in the past.. I like when she said : We can never reach our full destiny apart from the people God puts in our lives.. Its important to be yoked with people who walk closely with GOD. Accountability results from having close relationships with strong believers who are themselves accountable to other strong believers. Its important to be accountable because we are all capable of being deceived. We all have blind spots. We need people who will help us see the truth about ourselves and our lives. And we need to have the kind of relationships that don't break down when truth is spoken in love .. Seven good signs of a desirable friend , are.. ...

This one is the warning sign for us.. remember that how we reach our destiny depend on the way we live..the way we live is influenced by the people we deal with every day.. I remember one sermon i heard says.. Show me your friend then i'll tell you what your future will be.. its so obvious that whoever stay close to you will determine our character and our future.. I'm not perfect as well..i took this message as a lesson for myself on the very first place and i'd like to share this to you as well... Seven Signs of Undesirable Friend 1. An undesirable friend is immoral and has no regard for others . "I have written to you not to keep company with anyone named a brother, who is sexually immoral, or covetous, or an idolater, or a reviler, or a drunkard, or an extortioner - not even to eat with such a person" (1 Corinthians 5:11) 2. An undesirable friend is changeable and unstable . "Do not associate with those given to change; for their calamity wil...

I really love this song..the music and also lyric is like a magic can draw you close to the presence of God.. Its taken from the latest album of Hillsong United : All of the above Lead Me To The Cross Savior I come Quiet my soul remember Redemptions hill Where Your blood was spilled For my ransom Everything I once held dear I count it all as lost Lead me to the cross Where Your love poured out Bring me to my knees Lord I lay me down Rid me of myself I belong to You Lead me, lead me to the cross You were as I Tempted and trialed You are Te word became flesh Bore my sin and death Now you're risen To your heart To your heart Lead me to your heart Lead me to your heart

C. S. Lewis in Mere Christianity wrote, “Being in love is a good thing, but it is not the best thing. There are many things below it, but there are also things above it. You cannot make it the basis of a whole life. It is a noble feeling, but it is still a feeling. Now no feeling can be relied on to last in its full intensity, or even to last at all....In fact, the state of being in love usually does not last....But of course ceasing to be ‘in love’ need not mean ceasing to love. Love...is a deep unity, maintained by the will and deliberately strengthened by habit; reinforced by the grace which both partners ask and receive from God....They can retain this love even when each would easily, if they allowed themselves, be ‘in love’ with someone else. ‘Being in love’ first moved them to promise fidelity: this quieter love enable them to keep their promise. It is on this love that the engine of marriage is run: being in love was the explosion that started it.” ---------------...

I love this song, actually all of Matt Redman's songs contains lyric that comes from the heart of true worshippers.. ---------------- Jesus Christ, I think upon Your sacrifice You became nothing Poured out to death Many times, I've wondered at your gift of life I'm in that place once again I'm in that place once again And once again I look upon the cross where You died I'm humbled by Your mercy and I'm broken inside Once again I thank You, Once again I pour out my life Now You are exhalted to the highest place King of the Heavens, where one day I'll bow But for now, I'll marvel at Your saving grace I'm full of praise once again Oh I'm full of praise once again And once again I look upon the cross where You died I'm humbled by Your mercy and I'm broken inside Once again I thank You Once again I pour out my life Thank you for the cross Thank you for the cross Thank you for the cross, my friend And once again I look upon t...

Today is our 2nd visit to dr. Lukman Hudono. All the result is good. And once again we can see our baby from the USG monitor.. it's very small like a green bean and we can see the heart beat..i'm so happy, couldnt believe that its real.. We'll be visited doctor again in the next 2 weeks, he asked me to take several blood tests before the 3rd visit. I hope everything will be okay.. my body hasn't change yet, only gain 1 kg in 2 weeks..i think its because of eating too much at home hehehe...lots of food there, who can resist ? NOBODY.. Btw, doctor said that on july 17th, my baby will be 2 months old..:) i know its not exacly 2 months but thats how they calculate, its from the first day of my last period, which was on may 17th. I'm a very happy mom to be..

by Larry James (taken from http://www.celebratelove.com/forgive.htm) I just found this article and the message is very true..i'd like to share with all of you.. LoveNote. . . If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa Forgiveness works! It is often difficult, AND it works! We often think of forgiveness as something that someone who has done us wrong must ask of US. There is always another way of looking at something. My thoughts on forgiveness suggest that you focus on offering forgiveness TO the person who has wronged you. To not forgive them is like taking the poison (continuing to suffer for what they did or didn't do to you) and expecting THEM to die! Alexander Pope once said, "To err is human; to forgive, Divine." Believe it! Forgiveness is a gift you give to yourself. It is not something you do FOR someone else. It is not complicated. It is simple. Simply identify the situation to be forgiven and ask your...

Going back to Sumba always enjoyable even though its quite tiring, but still i was so excited to meet my beloved parents and family.. Me and my husband went on thurs morning (july 5th) 6am by merpati to denpasar then we had to transit there for about 4.5 hours waiting for the connection aircraft from surabaya. It was so boring if we have nothing to do there..but thanks to my cousin, who brought us 2 boxes of NASI BABI GULING chandra..yummy...it was the best thing happended on that day hehe..then at 2pm we flew to sumba, arrived in waingapu, then we still need to travel almost 3 hours to waikabubak..what a long road.. The next day, friday july 6th, its the engagement day for my brother Donny, we went to Adisti place with lots of goods.. The wedding day was on sat july 7th. Holy matrimony on 10am then the wedding party at 7pm..the party went till midnigt with lots of entertainment. They also have doorprizes and banci show from surabaya..lots of food off course. I met lots of lo...

Finally after got married i have to travel again to visit some of our distributor around indonesia. This time i went to Pekan baru and Medan only for 3 days..I went there with my sales staff Denny. PEKAN BARU august 1st 2007, the flight was at 7am, so i had to be at airport by 6am...*no choice* my husband drove me there..*a bit sad to let me go hehe*. We went to Padang with Batavia Air, the flight was okay, we arrived in PK about 8.30am. Got Pak Simanjuntak pick us up. Usually PK always hot maybe about 28-29 celcius, but fortunately on that day the temp was 24celcius and light rain..thank God..:) We had breakfast at KIM TENG coffee shop, then visited our distributor. We only had 6 hours there before our flight to Medan. Everything done just in time, i think we had a good deal with our distributor then we can leave. In Pekan Baru there's no special food, not much interesting stuff to do there..people went there just for business, thats why i prefer to stay in medan instea...

When i drive my car to office this morning, suddenly i start to sing and worship God, i think about all the goodness in my life.. i'm still amazed how everything went this far..and all for good. I went out from sumba in 1992, from comfort living with my parent to a different world. I went to Malang and studied at SMAK COR JESU, i stayed in dormitory there, all girls.. and those girls i live with slowly changed my life from a tomboy girl to a girl who finally can see a boy not just a buddy..and i grew up to know my God even more at GKI Tumapel.. i still miss all those memories there. I once had a best friend, her name is dini, we stayed in dorm together, we went to the same church, we even had our SIDI together, lots of memories, happy and sad, many secrets.. then she died on 1996 in surabaya. I was so sad. That's one of the hardest moment in my life..losing someone i care about. Its been 11 years now.i can still remember her obviously.. Anyway, after graduated from high sch...

After asked many people for recommended doctor, i finally decided to go for Dr. Lukman Hudono at Siloam Medika (ex. Graha Medika). We went there at 11am, coz tonite i have to go to BEAT and David have a weekly meeting. Anyway quite relief as we can see through the USG, its there..very small size just like an egg.. Dr. Lukman said its a month-year old..and due date will be on mid of feb 2008. Nothing to be worry he said, just relax, dont get stressed out, eat anything i want, just avoid raw food, no heavy excercise..have some more rest. I also told him that i'm going back to sumba on july 5th-9th for my brother's wedding, he said okay, no need to worry, next appointment will be on wed july 11th. I hope everythings will be fine, no complications and things will be much easier..

Today is our 1st month anniversary..days went so fast i still remember the same date last month (may20th) i woke up at 4am, going to NewBrides for make up..then i become the happiest girl on earth on the afternoon..our love has brought us to the highest level of relationship, we become husband and wife. Anyway the first month went very well, we live our life in the real world, it means that its very hard to avoid clash and misunderstanding.. but thank God we always find the way out to enjoy our life with joy. These few weeks I've been cooking and its great to know that i can enjoy that. At least i know i have a bit of my mom's skills :) I hope my marriage will going stronger each day, we'll be able to be the better person to each other everyday..always trying to put someone else more important than ourselves..and above all i hope God will always be the head of my marriage..

After getting married, i began having problem with my skin especially my face. Got so many acne.. don't know what to do now. I already went to erha clinic, got advice from a doctor then using its product with some of them i already used it regularly before and it works, but now its so hard to fix them. last week i try to put make up, for u-channel's grand launching, after got home my face got worst...hiks.. i never experience this before, it seems that my face-skin so sensitive. before i never had problem with any kind of make up, anything can do. For the treatment i only need facial scrub and moisturizer, that's all and my skin was okay.. i hope oneday "soon" my face will get well just like before.. God help me...

I've just been married for less than a month, many people ask me about hows the marriage life goes.. its definitely a different atmosphere, for me its a blessing from God, its a favor and its only by His grace. after we start our normal life daily, its obvious for me that i have no longer feel alone. At least i have someone beside me for the rest of my life and our commitment will stay us together no matter what. After 15 years living a part from my family, being an independent girl, trying to handle everything alone, a marriage life is like heaven on earth. Now my activities everyday is taking care my husband and working.. I hope i can be the best wife for my husband..and hopefully we'll have someone's new coming into our life soon..

Words and Music by Tommy Walker Jeremiah 1:5 "Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee." I have a Maker He formed my heart Before even time began My life was in his hands Chorus He knows my name He knows my every thought He sees each tear that falls and He hears me when I call I have a Father He calls me His own He?ll never leave me No matter where I go Chorus He knows my name He knows my every thought He sees each tear that falls and He hears me when I call

I have been unworthy I have been unrighteous And I have been unmerciful I have been unreachable I have been unteachable I have been unwilling And I've been undesirable And sometimes I have been unwise I've been undone by what I'm unsure of But because of you And all that you went through I know that I have never been unloved I have been unbroken I have been unmended I have been uneasy And I've been unapprochable I've been unemotional I've been unexceptional I've been undecided And I have been unqualified Unaware - I have been unfair I've been unfit for blessings from above But even I can see The sacrifice You made for me To show that I have never been unloved Unaware - I have been unfair I've been unfit for blessings from above But even I can see The sacrifice You made for me To show that I have never been unloved It's because of you And all that you went through I know that I have never been unloved

It's been more than a week since the day i become a wife. After 5 days honeymoon now we're back to the real world. This is what i have imagined before, living a life with someone i love and enjoying every minute of it. I also imagine about tons of laundries, cooking, waking up earlier, cleaning the house and so many more. Finally i live the life that many girls have dreamt of. I really thank God that i have a very wonderful husband, who always help and understand. Today is the first day back to work, its great to meet my co-workers again, i love my job even we're in the middle of struggle after the flood back on feb 07. But life must go on. Our honeymoon was great, even it doesnt look like a perfect honeymoon to others but we really enjoy it. Its a bit tired tough. But we got a good time there, enjoying lots of food, watch movie, go to the peak, shopping, go to the disneyland..and enjoying the fire works at disney..it was so beautiful.. Finally we're stay...

Everytime i look back to the very beginning when i met david, i still can't believe how God has brought us together. I was in the middle of not trusting myself that i would find a guy that i will love to spend the rest of my life with.. After so many ups and downs in my life..i almost give up on expecting something best for my love life But look i am now..i'm counting the days to the most magical day in my life.. In the next week i'll be the happiest girl on planet. As long as i live i never doubt my self-confidence, maybe i get used to it because i have no choice but to be an independent person. I have people around me who cares about me, i have a wonderful family..still God never stop to amaze me with all He provides for me. I love the song called " When God Made you " (i get this song from sley) every word in this song really express how i feel about my relationship. And onething that i can say is that God has made me the most blessed woman when He finally ...

" For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future ." (Jeremiah 29:11) Today's Word from Joel and Victoria God wants to bless you not just because He loves you, which He does, but also so that you can be a blessing to others. God wants you to experience not just blessing, but tremendous blessing, in your life because He knows that when you taste of His love and goodness you want to go out and share it with someone else. You can do this by partnering with other believers around you and in the ministry, and by reaching out to lost and searching people around the world. There are millions of people in our world who need to know that God has a more hope-filled future for them—and you can help them find it! A Prayer for Today God, thank You for Your tremendous blessings You shower upon me. Use me to pour out those same blessings to others who need to know You. In ...

American Idol has been my favorite and must watch show. My favorite contestant this year is the one and only JORDIN SPARKS .. I love her voice and the way she sing.. its like a magic, cant believe that she's only 17 years old..my goodness.. The best performance for me is when she sang I Who Have Nothing, I never heard this song before and she sang it so beautiful..later then i know thats the song used to performed by Tom Jones. I have downloaded the song, so i can hear it anytime i want.:) The latest one is A broken Wing, that's Martina McBride's song. There's no doubt she'll be The Winner of 2007 American Idol . I'm so happy that Sanjaya is finally OUT... THE LYRICS.............. "I (Who Have Nothing)" I, I who have nothing I, I who have no one Adore you, and want you so I'm just a no one, With nothing to give you but Oh I Love You He, He buys you diamonds Bright, sparkling diamonds But believe me, dear when I say, That he can give ...